Futagoza loves Michael Jackson

This post is accompanied with unstoppable tears. Yes, for the past three days I've been mourning. The world has lost another legend, this time it's the King of Pop.

Of course it's not me only. Everybody is sad upon the tragic news. But, I want to tell you how he had affected my way of thinking. How he inspired me.

He is the reason why I want to perform. The reason why I've chosen music as my way of life.

I've been crying nonstop everytime - seriously - everytime I played the "Earth Song". His voice and the way he arranged his music, it's beyond everything. I can not be more in love with someone who has the ability to express themselves to the fullest. And not to forget, to be inovative. Let's say, it's the same with my endless admiration to Bruce Lee through his Martial arts. These people are prodigies.

The past three days I've listened to nothing but MJ's songs. How I realized that I was too late. Too late to rediscover my love again, to try understanding him and his pain.

I bet you remember my last post during the ridicilious rumour phase? God has shown me another lesson through the life Michael Jackson. Michael Jackson had passed more tragic events in his life, to compensate the level of success he had achieved. That got me to thinking; how could I be such a crybaby? I'm now very ashamed of myself.

I personally believe that MJ is not guilty from all the consecutive allegations given to him in the past decade. I'm too tired to write my reasons based on my opinion: Michael Jackson is a man of heart and there is no way he would harm or sexually molest children. You go see for yourself.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1iplZPIlBEw&feature=related

Inside him there is a boy who doesn't grow up. But along that boy there is also innocence and pure love. That is expressed through his music and his passion while delivering the music.

I believe in him. I might not know all his pain, but I can imagine myself being in his position. I would have gone mad.

Yet, what did he do? No complain whatsoever. The crazy media kept twisting the lies, but he kept his words. Listen to 'Heal The World'. He delivered his best to heal our world through his talent he has nothing to lose. He has inspired many. But the world denies the fact that he is a human being, who did mistakes too (one case where he carelessly dangled his son 'blanket' in the balcony of his hotel room at Berlin). He is suppose to be Godlike thus alienating him from society.

When he sings, his voice is marvelous. But I'm not just writing about his versatile voice that can shift from soft to sexy growls. It is the way he delivers his songs. He made us listen, slowly receiving his messages. Suddenly in just few verses, he successfully bring us to the same page. Just listening to a record has given that great impact. The impact grows more when he performed in live shows. The expressions were enhanced through his feline yet masculine movements. Quoting him; to feel the groove, the bass, and the words, NOT to think or to count.

I'm still long away below that unreachable level. What I mean by unreachable is not about his techniques, because nowadays a lot are able to duplicate that quality. Unreachable means his achievement to discover the innovative formula of expressing JUST himself to the maximum level. Or to be simple, unreachable means to be creative.

Michael, you have reminded me to work harder, and not to forget, to be more humble. You are right. Time will unveil the truth. We just have to take the down road. That way we will feel blessed. I love you Michael Jackson. I will always remember the moment when I came to your HIStory concert tour in Singapore. I was just a little girl, wearing white shirt, black pants, and black glossy shoes trying desperately to do the moonwalk.

Everynight I mourn for your passing. But your songs had made me stronger to face the next coming days.

This is something I did in for fun. Enjoy :)

Which MICHAEL JACKSON song:

Makes you smile:
The Girl is Mine

Makes you cry:
-Earth Song
-Heal the World

Makes you laugh:
Thriller

Makes you wish you were a child again:
-Black or White
-Remember the Time (you are so hot in this video. I was so little yet I already thought how happy I will if I can marry you)

Is played most often on your iTunes:
Bad (this video is smokin hot too, especially the jamming part in the end.)

Is your all-time favorite:
-Stranger in Moscow
-Bad

Is better performed live than it is on recording:
-Smooth Criminal (I agree with my sister, Vira!)

Is better on recording than it is performed live:
All magnificent. He's a prodigy.

Has lyrics that are unbelievably profound:
Earth Song

Has lyrics that confuse you a little bit:
Ben (dulu. ben itu siapa ya? .:iri:. is it a mice?)

Has lyrics that confuse you very much so:
-Man in the Mirror (kakak, we were confused together. kan kita diskusi pas kita masi kecil dulu. kok ada orang di dalem kaca?)
-Smooth Criminal (gak jelas nyanyinya apa kalo belom liat liriknya)

Will be played at your funeral:
You Are Not Alone

Reminds you of someone you love:
Beat it (reminds me of Bruce Lee)

Tells your life story:
-Stranger in Moscow (when I feel that the whole world is full of selfish and take-it-for-granted people. Also when I feel that it is impossible to find people with pure love and care.)
-You Are Not Alone (to remind me, that I have a big support system walking along side by side with me - family and fans. Love you.)
-Scream (to the snooty media and ill willing people)

Turns you on:
-Dangerous
-The Way you Make Me feel

Depresses you:
She's Out of My Life

Might give you a headache if you turned it up too loud:
Smooth Criminal

Could you listen to all day and never get sick of:
-Heaven Can Wait
-Earth Song

Best song to drink/get high too:
-The Way You Make Me Feel! WAOWW (Mau dideketin kyk gitu caranya)
-Don't stop till you get eough

Favorite Song to dance to:
-Thriller
-Blood on the Dance Floor...
-actually all the upbeat song!:D

Reminds you of your family:
-Black or White (knp yah? i think it's because of the panther dance scene. the scene when he zip up his zipper. :P)
-Heal the World

Favorite break-up song:
... Dangerous

Favorite Angry Angry song (complete with great outbursts):
-Scream
-They don't care about us.

--------------

Gila ya, I'm unknown to his eyes, but it has been three freakin days and I still feel super sad. Goodbye dear prodigy, genius, performer, musician, and most importantly, childhood friend. He remains in our hearts. From Jackson 5 to 2009. Till our time is up and we can watch more of his moonwalk in the skies of heaven. Obviously, the angels and heaven can't wait. :'(

We will do our best to fulfil our dreams of healing this world. Starting with ourselves, Man in the Mirror!

RIP Michael Joseph Jackson. (still can't believe writing RIP next to your name...)

regards,

geminipride