Futagoza pengen update aja

Saudara-saudara, zaman ini semakin BANYAK wanita yang tega memangkas rambutnya hingga sangat pendek - seperti saya. Saya benar-benar tidak bermasalah dengan hal ini. Aaya yakin setiap orang mempunyai alasan dibalik aksi-aksi mereka. Baik atau jelek alasan mereka, itu tak jadi masalah bagi saya.

Yang jadi masalah adalah ketika saya digolongkan sebagai cewek2 yang potong rambut semenjak Rihanna potong rambut. TIDAK! TIDAK! TIDAK! Tidak pernah saya menjadikan Rihanna sebagai kiblat gaya rambut. Jadi... one more time, not it's not Rihanna.

Beginilah alasan saya,

1. Sudah lama berambut panjang. Sejak SD, gak pernah potong rambut pendek. Menjelang hari ujian akhir SMA (IB stres gila), saya berniat motong rambut supaya gak mengganggu. Jatuh sana sini, lama keringnya kalo keramas pagi.
2. Pada dasarnya jarang sisiran. Model rambut panjang kebanyakan bagus kalo disisir. Tapi kalo pendek sebagian besar menggunakan teknik ngacak-ngacak rambut! Haha
   
3. Tidak ngikutin siapa-siapa
4. Kalo harus manggung, capek ngliat settingan muka saya dengan rambut di blow. Sumpah.
5. Ya, emang pengen aja.
   
6. Bukan usaha ganti image. Emang dari dulu sebenernya seharusnya rambutnya pendek.

Y udah ah egois bgt ngomongin saya dan rambut saya gini. Sing sabar ya saudara2. Karena ada PEMILU, launching resmi terpaksa diundur lagi. :( :(. Tapi gak papa, dengan ini, jadi lebih memberikan saya waktu untuk lebih menyempurnakan isi album saya. Saya ingin mempersembahkan yang terbaik untuk semuanya. Gak bisa bilang kapan pastinya. Tapi yang pasti:

Secepatnya!

love you all.

geminipride

Futagoza's Devil Foodcake

Saya bikin kueeeee!

Long time ago I attempted to bake a nice delicious chocolate cake, but it ended up crunchy (I put granulated sugar instead of caster sugar) and salty (I put either a salted butter instead of unsalted or I add 1 tablespoon of salt instead of 1 teaspoon). SALTY CHOCOLATE CAKE...

This experience was quite traumatic, so I decided to label myself untalented in cooking (that's what my family thinks too).
Suddenly,

Tada... "Valentine's Day 2009"

I wanna do something special. That's when I started to just go for it. Bake another cake.

This time, my older sister supervised me and she was the one who spotted my mistake. I put 10 ounces of butter instead of 4 ounces. Stupid stupid. Fortunately we realized before it was too late.

Photos:




I know you probably might think eww. If you glance quickly, it does look like a pile of poo. I asked my dearest to try it. First he hesitated (because before he tasted my salty chocolate cake), but after a bite, he wanted more.

Yeay success !
I would love to bake some more ~

geminipride

Futagoza's Scar Colored Purple

She is lost and confused
Thus becomes unpredictable
I don't know what's going on inside her
I can't save her
And I've lost my interest to try

The ignorance.

Is she punishing herself
Or is she punishing me
And my friends?
Is she really that heartless
Or naive?

I nearly don't care
She has rejected me
Neglects me
Puke myself out of her life
As if I used to be her own personal Satan
My heart is broken

I'm still asking myself nowadays
How can you? Why would you?
For all this time I never ask for anything in return
I really never

She thinks of me as her own personal Satan
And I have my minions
Ready to hurt her

I'm not flawless
Yet never there is intention to hurt
She thought she's dealing
Like a grown up

But let me tell her,
Keep running away
From her past bonds
Forgetting her past diamonds (If that was what we are "diamonds")

You are just a little girl
Who denies to grow up

You want me to introspect?
Because this is the second time
Girls breaking ties with me?
It's true I've learned my lesson I
'm picking up the scattering pieces

But it can't hide
The deep lurking pain in me
And I believe people around me too
Who knows her very much
And who doesn't
I can't force you to introspect
I'm not gonna say that most of the faults
Belong to you

But

It's nice to know
What's in her mind
What is wrong with you?
Really, tell me. What is it that's in your mind?

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I treasure my friends so much. Thank you for being here.
I apologize for ... you know, the whole -- can't deal with the past and get on-- shit.
However you don't have to understand ... but really, this one is very painful. I'm recovering. I dream about this every night. Seriously, every night, there are little nightmares in my sleep. I'm sorry dear friends, just had to write it.

The least I'm going to be, is to be a coward.